Before you read this post, I will have to warn you people that I am uttering out my feelings. I only accept comments here and no others, including MSN, FB, SMS, bla bla bla, and the list goes on. This post is inspired after reading one of my friend's post. (When would I be allowed to add your blog to my blog roll?)

It has been half a year since we chatted, online and offline, which was quite unexpectedly happened. I never thought that I would not be talking to someone for that long while meeting almost every other day or so. I don't know whether there are any misunderstandings between us, but I think I am feeling bad now.

Before the problem part of our friendship, let me just write out what I had experienced here. Walking into a class almost 2 years ago and only one person grabbed my attention, not saying love at first sight but just attractive. My friends still think I was blind. Well, opinions. Haha~~

After some time, I try to get to know this girl, and it was good. I then programmed myself to be her one and failed. Then, I try to be friends. And trust me, it sucks as I don't know how to begin with. Then, some time went by. By coincidence I quarreled with assignment group members over some stuff which facilitates our "cold war", as claimed by those close to me. From then onwards, we stop talking, I started hating, and bla bla bla.

I think it's my fault here. T.T But then, explain why the blocking in MSN? Anyhow, one friend told me that maybe we have the same negative qualities that will cause some explosion. Maybe she's right, because it happened. Been hating for quite some time until recently. After my last paper, I suddenly felt that my two years had been constructed around her and to lose her as a friend is actually a failure in life.

I always wanted to try work out things with her, but I don't know how to start. Regretting may be the best thing I can do now. No experience handling such matter before. T.T The second longest so called "cold war" was 3-4 days. Six full months is a whole new level.

It might be hard few months ago, but now I had finally left the fantasy-land, maybe I can try reconciled. And, maybe read her the letter I planned whole year for her birthday but just threw away when the day arrived. Maybe not. LOLx

I once felt hatred towards her (unconsciously), now I might hate myself if I lose this friend. Missed those chats we have, amid an awkward environment every of those times. Hopefully the UK Top-up program will be a good platform. Hopefully. ^^

TAR College journey had come to an end. Thinking back the "innocent" me entering this college, the hostel and the mass call. I had grown from the person I was to the person I am now. Friends from the Diploma times will still be my best memory here.

This post is a dedication to all my Diploma classmates. Wishing all good luck in the years to come.

To "Henry" Hiew Zhi Hang, "Godfather" Soh Yee Hang, "Beckey" Yong Pit Chee, "Casie" Chin Pey Yeng:
Proud to be your friend. Dedication was posted in the last post. I am not so creative to write two different dedication. ^^

To "Jeffson" Chong Jit Shan:
Although our topic is somehow unrelated, our way of doing stuff and goals are also different, we are able to be friends, a very good one indeed. From what I see, both our character should clash, but it's a miracle. LOL Wishing you the best in your studies and career. ^^

To "Kenny" Leong Jun Yuan:
My first friend in TAR College. The first time I see you I was amaze, well, by your height. LOL You shouldn't be in college. Then I entered the lecture hall and it was full, you share your seat and the friendship blossom since. Being together in much of the assignments, I think I am too harsh towards you, as I expect more from you. Hoping to cooperate with you in business in the future. ^^

To "John" Ng Boon Teik:
Can be considered second friend although we seldom talk for the first few months. If it was not for Leong, we won't get this close. A person that a little not so logic with a little blend of immaturity (Don't angry), a good friend that will be there to talk when needed. Missed those days of you staying together with us. ^^

To "PC" Chew Kian Giap:
Very outgoing person, someone I quite respect. Come college to woo the girl of his dream. =.= One of the earliest person who gave me phone number. Thanks for you car usage over the Diploma years and your cracking jokes on Zhang. ^^

To "Henry" Yeow Soon Pheng:
The most outrageous jokes would come from this guy, a total joker. A good friend, a brother. Really disappointed you had not follow us up to second year. With his presence, any boring scene will change instantly. Hopefully, you don't change. Join us more. ^^

To "Andy" Lim Siow Keat:
Tall muscular guy in the basketball team. Another friend, another brother. Was with us for two years before ending the studying journey prematurely. A lot of fun with the guy that seems quite serious. Like gangster. LOL

To "Alex" Yew Zek Ung:
Say "Good morning, Cikgu Alex!" The most unbelievable joker is now a teacher. =.= Pity those children. The first of the hostel gang I talked to. This Sabah-kia can crack jokes out of thin air and crack out notes during exam. Respect. ^^

To "Cibai Yang" Lee Chee Yang:
Yeah, one word - "*****". LOL Really a good friend with very sharp words piercing people's heart, as usual, mostly Zhang's. One of the most hardworking person I had met. I will never have his will to study non-stop over few nights. Wishing him luck in getting a job. ^^

To "Bobo" Loh Chee Wai:
The guy who come to college promoting either Heads and Shoulders or Pantene. The guy with long silky hair and go almost bald the very next semester. A guy with venomous words uttered over his mouth. Long time no see. Call me more please. ^^

To "MSN Killer" Lai Kam Loong:
The person that is quite and never angry before. When will you get pissed off? Really looking forward to it. LOL MSN Killer as his name spells, hunt down girls over the Internet. Thank him for intro few leng luis over the years. Hopefully one of them would be my girl. ^^

To "Ranger" Goh Kok Teong:
A good friend, a good brother, a bad housemate. Our friendship is skewed awkwardly, yet still can be friends. One secret to be your good friend, don't be your housemate. A person that will help you unless the problem is out of his control. True friend indeed. ^^

To "SapGong" Lee Chong Siang:
The old one in our class. LOL Two years elder. Very calm person. The only person I heard fainted in exam hall. =.= Although your journey in TAR College is not so fruitful, wishing you the best in any career you pursue. ^^

To Chun Peng, Cheng Poo, Calvin, Carmen, Malvin, Wai Guan, Sin Mun, Miss Moo, Mun Wei, Yi Heng, Kok Siang:
We chatted to little, wish there was more chance to know you guys and girls. Good luck for all your respective journey. ^^

The above dedication is my personal opinion. I have not hard feelings against anyone above. All matters can be solve through give and take. Looking forward for the better future. ^^

Two years ago (Less than two years ago), we came together. Two years later (Less than two years later, our journey here at TAR College had come to an end. Mixed feelings rushed up my nerves. Felt sad that we will have lesser chance to meet again, and happy that we will seldom meet also. LOL Really, you guys (and girls) are quite boring. =.= But two years (less than two years) had created a bond, amid a weak one, and I will continue cherish our friendship for the rest of my live.

This post is a dedication to all my Advanced Diploma classmates. Wishing all good luck in the years to come.

To "Thomas" Chong Wen Han:
Our beloved class representative, a responsible one. Nicknamed "SinChan" for his looks. A person that has very high EQ and had never been in a bad mood. The smiling face that never stop smiling really creep me up sometimes. But a big thanks and hug from me for the two years of dedicated service. ^^

To "Henry" Hiew Zhi Hang:
Beloved assistant class representative that doesn't exist. Anyone still unaware that he is our assistant class representative? Who cares? Thomas is more than enough. Back to this guy, a good classmate, good roommate, good friend. Knew him since Diploma second semester, a public target, brought us much fun and joy. Although I felt bad for the joke on you, but I won't apologize. You know me! ^^

To "Godfather" Soh Yee Hang:
Our class invisible man. Who knew his existence? Even asking a question during tutorial would have invite a round of applause from the class. My "Godfather", a good friend, a good driver (as he say he is). An avid gamer, and I really admire him for being able to survive Advanced Diploma. ^^

To "Kim" Chong Wee Kim:
Most senior among the guys, gained fame through the use of the phrase - "It depends". Have good argumentation skill but sometimes his argument is either unacceptable or just cannot be understood. Overall, a good guy with a good insight. The friendship between us will last long. Well, he is the guy i spent most time with after Zhang and Yhang. ^^

To "Earnest Chin Tong Seng:
A very talkative and sociable guy. The first day he transferred from ABM to ABU he had already chatted with me. From Diploma, he knew me, I knew him. A very good guy, have sense of responsibility. Only grouped with him in one assignment and I will rate him above average for his contribution. A very good friend with a sense of my DBU'08 Group 11 brotherhood bond. Keep in touch. ^^

To Loo Fan Wee @ Loo David:
Quite invisible. Have a good brotherhood bond but felt that the way we do things are different. Especially on the perception on how coursework should be done. A fun guy that will join most of the activities we organised. Different perception but still can be good friends is a true blessing from god. Cherish it. ^^

To "Casie" Chin Pey Yeng:
Little girl, bla bla bla, a lot of nicknames, all censored. A quite girl since Diploma, and still the same in Advanced Diploma. I feel that you are trying to ignore my existence, or just lazy to talk to me. =.= Nevertheless, a good friend that doesn't wanted anything in return for favors given, or maybe you are planning something bigger. ^^

To "Beckey" Yong Pit Chee:
Diploma never talk to her even once although same class. Don't know why in Advanced Diploma can talk so much with you. Obviously we are from different world, but can't explain our friendship. We should not be friend, the God mush had made a mistake. For the closing, really sorry for commenting on your weight. =.= I don't know if we will meet again in the future. But if we do meet again, I will still comment harshly on you. LOL ^^

To "Witch" Goh Hui Yin:
A good friend, good sister (for a short period). Almost anonymously agreed upon my friends to be the most leng girl in class, we had experienced good times before I gone mad over some assignment matters. But the friendship should be recovering, and hopefully flourish in the future. An elegant lady with a crazy mind. LOL ^^

To "Janice" Loh Yin Yee:
Ping Pong Society member (Not what I say, I just write what I see). What can I say? Nothing much, just praises from me only. Would be a better friend if we had more outings. Really nothing say already. Good luck. ^^

To "Godmother" Sim Li Cheng:
Another member of the exclusive society. Become my godmother because of a simple transaction, exchanging tutorial answer for me to call her that nickname. LOL A very crazy girl. Nothing say about her. Sorry for something we had said but you don't know. Keeping it a secret is better than you knowing it. ^^

To "Crazy Girl" Lim Li Yong:
One word, crazy. Forget me when you don't need me, find me when want to ask me question. Talk sometimes not so logic, and surviving Advanced Diploma should be a miracle for her. Harsh nickname, but I will continue to use it. ^^

To "Freesia" Atiqah Aimee:
The sole non-Chinese in the class. Very modern Muslim. Good girl friend with exceptional culinary skills. Blend well with classmate although most of the time we speak Mandarin. Wish you good luck in your future journey. ^^

To "Jennifer" Yew Leh Cheng:
The girl that grabbed my attention with her attitude. Very direct and outspoken in her speech. I think the similarity in our negative attitude doesn't blend well in our friendship. After the years, I would still love her to be my friend, but I just don't know how. Maybe as she said, "Fate bring people together, and people parts when fate ends". Maybe our fate as friends had ended. ^^

To "Whiskey" Lim Ying Pin:
The main threat to my legacy, as what I presumed. The last person I knew to be so hardworking is my primary school friend. Hardworking and always prepared for tutorials. Thanks for the help in tutorial and other inquiries. But as Yhang say there will be only one king in a kingdom, we will be only be competitor in good terms, amid different styles of handling matters. ^^

To Rae, Wei Sing, Suat Li, Sze En, Yie Yin, Hui Ju, Yee Theng, Jyy Huey, Swee Ching, Ya Chien, Garen, Cindy, Chan Hao:
We talked too less, only over the line and I don't know what to comment. T.T Hopefully our friendship will proceed for the better. For some, don't just asked me about academic stuff, ask me go dinner also can. ^^

The above dedication is my personal opinion. I have not hard feelings against anyone above. All matters can be solve through give and take. Looking forward for the better future. ^^