I am going to fly to UK in less than two months, what an excitement. Hahas, I don't have the RM 30,000 yet for the trip, erm, tuition and living fees. ^^ Hopefully can get it by this month.

The title reads depreciation but I am not talking about the Sterling. Yeah, maybe the depreciation in Pound will appreciate the value of my trip there but that's another matter now.

TARCians going to SHU do not really go there for the degree, as I observed, but for the Euro tours. Certificate is secondary to most of us, including me. For me, I had list down some of the places in UK and also Europe where I wanted to visit.

One of the place of my interest would be the Old Trafford Stadium of Manchester United, the holy land of MU fans. I had done my research, it costs £12.50 for museum entrance and also a guided tour, hopefully by some famous ex-players. ^^ I bet I can see the English League Cup there as won by the team this term.

The most precious trophy I was looking forward to was the Champions League trophy. But after the match on Wednesday, my chance to see the coveted trophy with my eyes in an arm length distance vanish, thanks to the "mighty" Germans. Fuck T.T Now let just hope I am lucky enough to have the chance to view the Premiership trophy in the cabinet within OT compound.

Really hope that MU will win it as the value of my visit to UK has already depreciated too much already. If really there's this worst case scenario, I can just hope that England can win the fucking World Cup. Just let me feel the atmosphere of supported team winning. T.T I will get Malaysian flag for the victory parade if England wins.

What a weird name for a post. LOLx It had been a week since Good Friday and this post was my view on that day since a long time ago. Hopefully I do offend someone.

Entering the Holy week of Catholic church, there are so many masses to attend and I have just to many opinions on all the rituals performed over the years. I can accept simple rituals such as the holy communion and prayers but some others are just berserk.

Some people treated Good Friday as a celebration. WTF Jesus died for us on the cross and some people are celebrating the holiday. Well, I did not fast that day though. T.T As for Good Friday, this year I went to St. Peter's church yet again. These faithfuls just don't get bored of seeing the procession, and kissing Jesus that lying dead on the alter.

When I was a cute little boy, I like going there. Well, not kissing Jesus feet, which is creepy and super unhygienic. The candles really attracted me then. Erm, maybe it's the fire. LOLx I never kissed the leg of Jesus since once I was forced to do so by my grandma. Yucks. Some Catholics are just obsesses with it.

I wasn't going to queue for the kissing part this year but my grandma wanted to go so much, so I just followed. Sweat a lot as the ventilation at the church was sucks. I just touch the feet of Jesus and kneel, nothing much. I even see one auntie, old lady, kiss for so long that the personnel had to ask her to give others the chance. =.=

Back in my village church, the priest also advise us not to be too superstitious. He is right to note that old people believe that holy water is really holy that it can heal any sickness. LOLx It's just tap water, blessed by the priest. The priest also tell us that the holy water should be put on the alter to remind us of the Holy Trinity. He also poked some jokes on those who took so many palm leaves to be blessed by the priest.

What I see is no match for those Good Friday processions that made the news. Many people had recreated the scene where Jesus carry the cross and being whipped by others. And they really whipped the poor "Jesus". WTF Did Jesus teach us to inflict pain on ourselves to show our love for God? Their act of love towards Almighty may be sincere, but I feel it is totally wrong. Their act are comparable to masochist. The worst I'd seen this year, and every other years before, is "Jesus" nailed to the cross, using really traditional nail, and on a human palm. Sad.

From what I see, the passion of the Christ had just become the passion of the Masochist. I agree that we need to show our love to God through actions, but this is seriously not the good way, if it is not wrong. Superstitious beliefs that holy water cures cancer and palm leaves scare evil spirit away should be stopped. Really, if Jesus lives until today, he might just wonder what had happened to his teachings.

Long time no update my blog and felt that I need to shit something out today. Well, the news provide me with something to write. Thanks to my informant who got to me as soon as he got the news.

Yet another by-election is on the table when another MP passed away this morning. This time around is a BN guy from Sibu. This happened even before both political factions in the country had announced their candidates for Hulu Selangor by-elections.

"In US, the most dangerous job is loggers, with a mortality rate of 0.117%. But Malaysia now holds a new record... Here's prove - Total number of ADUNs and MPs: Approx 800. Total number of ADUNs and MPs who died since March 8, 2008: 8. thus Mortality rate of being a representative: approx 1%. Behold, wakil rakyat, the most dangerous job in the world." - Nigel

It seems that the job as politicians had become increasingly hazardous, with so many death since the political tsunami. By-elections after by-elections, some due to death and some are just political strategies.

My dad always wanted me to join politics and I don't want to due to the stress of it. I can see it in my dad, really stupid to work for the people who don't appreciate your effort. Any politician will have people don't appreciate them, at least by those supporters of the other factions, be it BN or PR.

Stress had caused many death in politics in Malaysia, but not as serious as some other nation in terms of murders. There are some murders of politician at grassroots level but I had not seen any big names being killed by gunshots yet.

The recent death are mostly due to health problem. The stress they got from their daily life as politician accumulates and caused heart attacks, worsen cancer cells, maybe some going nuts wanting to be the head. One exception I know would be YB Seet, who suffered heart attack three times before he got elected and lived his life better since he got to be in the DUN.

Why there are still people in the politics then? Well, maybe as what my dad says, to champion the voice of the people. =.= Fuck off, be selfish please. Now, that's me.

As contrary to the post title, being at my hometown will never provide me with peaceful life in terms of physical aspect. War is raging everyday in this little family of mine. But, I had come to some inner peace since I came back a week ago. It feels weird that I had no longer complaining or even thinking about going into a relationship.

It had been a week since my last post and I thought I should write at least something to make this blog active. For the past week, I had been posting songs that I feel the lyrics suit me, or maybe just the music is nice. ^^ Lets go back to my opening topic.

I had been portrayed as seriously desperate guy in need to be in a relationship. Actually I am still not into serious relationship but being in KL somewhat makes me feel like college should be the place. I am not ready for it, I think too much, especially on how am I going to take care of another person when I myself is heading towards damnation.

Being in Melaka had gave me the love of family although the people here quarrel everyday. It makes me forget about other form of love. Even my little kitties can accompany me during midnights when all others had gone to bed. Always wanted to find a girl that acts like those cute creatures, which likes to be pampered. I unable to do that yet to a lady.

And maybe friendship comes into play too. Since coming back here, I had faced the monitor almost 24 hours a day. I got the chance to interact with friends that will argue and debate anything with me. Those "gayness" relationship with Nigel, Oscar, Joseph, Ronald and Greg helped a lot. (P/S: We are straight. Nigel, I'm still breaking up with you.)

Although the desperate feeling fades, but I still try to think of any girl that maybe some time in future possibly become the sister-in-law of those bros out there. I was able to reassess what i want in my partner and hell it's a total different direction from what I wanted when I enter college. Taste changes and maybe I should go for a mature-thinking girl, who looks okay (Looks is still important, although years later my taste will change again).

A rule of thumb, the girl must "进得了厨房，出得了厅堂，上得了床"! LOLx Hopefully she will come. The sooner, the better. Gone, Nigel, Gone!

It had been more than a week since my last post and many stuff had happened within this period. From fetch a pretty lady back KL from Klang to results coming out and CTRE course I had attended. At finally, I am typing this post for you from Melaka.

Hopefully I can write on all of those stuff in coming days. Really need pray hard that I don't get lazy. This post is to talk about my results from last semester and also some comment on anything that comes to my mind about the subjects.

First subject I that came of the result page was Strategic Planning & Management. (Was using iPod Touch and scrolling down the mini screen =.=) I got A-. A good result indeed at first glance. With the tips and also answers that was given by the lecturer before the exam, a good outcome is inevitable. After some thought, A- is not the result I was hoping for. I need at least an A to show that Mr Chee that his perspective of me was wrong.

Mr Chee is a good lecturer indeed, but as many good tutors in TARC are, a bit arrogant. Why would I need a good result? To prove to him that he is a sucker when he condemn my test results. During midterm test, I got 71%, which I feel okay. But this guy just say he should not give me such good results. WTF Why you don't say this to those who get 80-90% by copying out of text? If I got an A, I would text him this, "What I got in the test shows my true potential, what they got in test is nothing near what will they get in the finals." Well, I don't have the luxury to write this to him. What a shame. What a disappointment.

Then the next to come is International Business Environment. I was expecting to get an A but an A- is a good result. With the tips given all out of the real exam questions, many people was worried. I'm not because I read the whole book, not just tips. The lecturer, Mr Khoo was a nice guy and look pretty like a Chinese singer. I sleep in his class, played computer games but he just smile every time. Maybe he just don;t give a damn. =.= Anyway, really need to thank him for what he taught us, although it is something that had been repeated throughout my four years in TARC.

Next scrolled up the screen was Case Study. I had no say, speechless. Got a B-. The worst result for a paper since I enrolled in TARC. What can I do? Full assignment paper and assignments are my weak link. I don;t have good relationship with the lecturers and those results are based on subjective views. And Mr Lenny was a boring lecturer. While he say he will marked objectively, all I can say is don;t bullshit me. =.= You even scolded me when it was not me who talked in the class.

Lastly was my favorite subject, International Marketing. It was taught by Ms Saranjit a.k.a. Mom. This was the most interesting class in my TARC life. ^^ From the first class I was actively participating. LOLx Replied "Yes, Mom" when my name was called on taking attendance. Interaction between classmates was at a high point with her interesting way of conducting lectures and tutorials. Got an A was a sure thing. Met her after got my result and she was also a very happy lady especially knowing me getting A and also YeeHang getting B in her paper.

Lastly, the overall result was dragged down by my CS result. T.T With a CGPA of 3.6210, I had to say goodbye to my certificate of Distinction graduation. Hopefully I still can get a First Class Degree from SHU when I fly there in June. ^^ Peace out~~

This topic may be creepy for some people and maybe I will be bombarded with comments against me. Well, yesterday I read about some guy commenting on eating stray dog as a way to curb the increasing number of problems caused by the canines mentioned. (The Star Views "Eating dogs and other tortured flesh")

Personally, I think that's not a good idea. It's stray, and may be carrying diseases that will transmitted to human if consumed. But I am not against eating dog meat.

As a business aspirant, I am always looking for any opportunities that can work (none work to date =.=). My uncle did once suggest that breeding dogs for consumption purposes, which I think is a great idea. It's a new business direction, have a potential market and it's just similar to breeding swines.

But, if I were to proceed with that idea, I may be protested against by those SPCA or some other hypocritical (to some extend) society out there. I do feel that their intention to protect dogs and cats and maybe something else is a good deed indeed, but against eating dog meat is absurd. How can you link eating dog meat to torturing dogs? One question, do you eat any other kind of meat? Eating pork or beef is actually the same those meat I had longed to taste.

So, some argued that those loyal animals are pets and "best friend" of humankind? Then what about swines? Some westerners do keep them as pet, and your are eating it. Shame on you, eating pets-to-be of other people. Then, some argued social norms. I can't argue for Muslims as they are prohibited to consume it and I respect that, but Chinese? Our ancestors do consume dogs as delicacy in the past. Why change now?

We, human, lived in this world where onlyt the strong will persevere. People can be cannibals if forced to. And I don't see why eating dogs make us less humane, as we are already inhumane enough. I do looking forward to one day finally taste the Caninelicious meat, as described by many people.

As for cats, I prefer not to talk about it because I am as hypocritical as those "humane beings" out there. I don't against anyone eating cats or other pet-class animals but for me feline consumption is a no no.

My last few article was too long and boring I think as no one gave me any comments. T.T So I will try to keep this one brief, hopefully. I was going to write about the Flat Earth Society but I think I can't convince myself to write such an absurd stuff in my blog. LOL I believe the Earth is round and revolve around the sun. Full stop.

That was not what I going to talk about today. Today's topic will be one Chinese love to give in their time for - gambling. I planned to write this last week after the CTRE but was not motivated until today when my friends discussed about gambling in Genting again.

No one can deny that Chinese crave for the trill of gambling, or maybe just the winning part. LOL Who doesn't? Based on my research from articles for my assignments last year, I found out that there is actually a scientific explanation to this. Chinese have high external locus of control and attributes their wealth and gains on their luck and fate. They also think that some alteration to tiny aspect in life can make them in control over the dealer. Innocent group of people.

For Chinese, although not all of us, if we are in a state of winning, it's our luck. If we lose, we blame our ancestors for not protecting us against the bad lucks. We blame those who are dead when we do not prosper. Maybe I can see the logic for general stuff but in terms of gambling in casinos like Genting, I think we should thank our ancestor for providing protection against these evil games. Why did I say so? Here's why.

Let's say if your ancestor provide you a favor, helping you to win the very first time you gamble, you will be happy but not yet addicted. Then, you win and win and one day become addicted, you are gone as the probability is stacked against you in any casino in the world. If your ancestor let you lose the first few times, then you will have a mindset against gambling and that may saved you from future losses, huge one. Gambling addiction kills too.

Don't believe me? I have one friend who won in style the first time. "In style" means everywhere he bet that day he won, almost every bet. He even wanted to try to show hand on the dice on his last round before being stopped by other friends. He was definitely addicted that night he lost his virginity in casino gambling. Had he not lost on his second adventure to the mountain of wealth "giving" few weeks later, he may become one of those who lose everything due to gambling addiction. He might still have the urge to throw his money in this "deposit account" to gain future "interest" but had slowed down in his action.

If we look into it in the long term, our ancestor might have been protected us from the catastrophic effect of gambling. So, I think losing a little in the beginning might be a blessing in disguise for all. Maybe trying some luck with control will be a good way to pass time but limit yourself. ^^

Few days ago, I had nothing to do that I went through the whole PPS list of movies and found some really epic classic movies. Two of I had watched was “The God Must Be Crazy” and its sequel. These two movies are from the 80’s and I am not sure whether any of the peers my age had ever watched or even heard of these movies. “The God Must Be Crazy in China” might have some viewers as it’s a Hong Kong production.

I really got attached to my seat although there are some slight connection problems that cause the movie not to be buffed smoothly. Nevertheless, the time used to watch the two movies is worth it. The main actor from Namibia, N!xau was effectively portrayed as the indigenous tribal population distanced from modern civilization. The story had started off with a narration about life of the human in the modern world and those in the wild safari of the Kalahari Desert.

The narration was quite critical with some sense of humor brought into it. Comparing the so called civilized world to the tribal life, the narrator suggested that humankind are trying to make their environment suits them, through building of skyscrapers and usage of transportations. But as they develop, humankind moved too fast and does not know how to limit their expansion in knowledge and reliance on technologies in their life. From my point of view based on the scene in the current world, the predictions from this movie seems to come through.

How many people today can really survives the day without any technological assistance? Let’s say the telephone, those traditional ones. No one will use smoke to convey message long distance anymore. Or there is? The narrator also suggested that the advancement of these technologies had not made life easier for human but brought by even negative impact, which I truly agree. The part which I agree most is students need to learn more and more by the year to fully understand their life. A simple Kalahari Desert bushman need not learn that much, and they just need to learn to understand their basic environment. Technologies had made us needing more than 15 years of studies, so I would like to fuck those who initiate the Industrial Revolution.

One more interesting thing that the narrator brought up is the fixed lifestyle of human, which 7.30AM is the time to wake up and 8.00AM is a time to work and the day routinely goes by. Quite interestingly, there are actually no rules specify that we should follow that routine, but people are just following the flow. This was also portrayed in an episode in the cartoon “Dilbert” where the main character is confuse why on Earth people follow the status quo and caused rush hour which lead to traffic jams. You can see it in every city in the world, with KL not exempted.

After the narrations that had caught my attention, the story starts with a pilot throwing an empty bottle of Coca-Cola out of his plane and fell in front of the main character (although I feel that his part in the movie is more complementary.) Unknown to the tribe of the existence of a bottle, he sees it as a gift from god and brought it home. He found it useful in their daily life but as days gone by it became a nightmare for them, which they subsequently labelled the bottle "The Evil Thing".

They had always thank their god for supplying plenty of resources but sadly the god just gave them one bottle, forcing them to try to own the bottle and not sharing it. It caused hatred among this innocent tribe. They had a discussion and agreed to give it back to god but throwing up in the air won’t really make your stuff be returned to god. Well, they don’t know about it. How innocent. LOL Then Xi volunteered to throw it into the edge of the world, which he presumes can be reached through 20-40 days of journey to the East. LOL What the fuck! =.=

Then the story alternates between the modern world’s rebellions and the journey of Xi. The movie then started to drive towards the comedy part. One part which makes me remembered the most is the rebels take cover in the banana plantation as they were hunted by the army. The movement was so cartoon-like especially the person who reloads the bazooka. For more about the movie, watch it yourself. LOL But Xi successfully throw the bottle into the edge of Earth in the end of the story.

The 1989 sequel to this 1981 movie also has the same genre, comedy with alternation between Xi and modern humans. This movie was more on the value of family and was focused on the illegal ivory trade in Africa. Xi’s children was transferred unintentionally by an ivory hunting vehicle and Xi run miles after miles to find his lost children. Although the plot is not as good as the first movie, it is more hilarious especially the encounter between the two American main characters with Xi, a local military official and a Cuban rebel that somehow was in Africa. The story end in a touching note, in which Xi hugs his children and has tears flowing down their eyes.

Some really old movies are better than the movies being screened in the theaters now. They also ought to bring our family are moral values more often as compared to the for entertainment only modern creation. One example is Avatar which I will rate it lowly in terms of the plot and also the acting. I do admire its graphic but being beaten by Hurt Locker in this year’s Academy Award is truly justified. Avatar is just not Oscar material. Another thing is I feel that science fiction movies that are produced in the 90’s are significantly more interesting than the current ones, notably my favorites “Minority Report” and “The Fifth Element”.

People’s tastes changes as time passes, but I feel that my time stopped in the 80’s and 90’s. Hopefully in this decade there will better movies on the table for us. ^^

The Formula One fever is back and the carnival is going to be kicked start in less than a week. Nevertheless, the atmosphere is burning hot on the grid, and off the grid too in Malaysia. The first stop for this year’s race is Bahrain and I am really looking forward to it. ^^

I had been following Formula One since 1999, the year Malaysia caught that fever. After 11 years, Formula One is still able to catch my attention with its new technologies. (Yes, techs. There girls in F1 is not as plentiful.) Well, every year there will be new excitements and this year is what I can say the one I most anticipate.

Why did I said so? This year there will be again new rules. The most notable change is the removal of refueling during pit stops, reverting the race back to its original form in 1994. Maybe by removing that function, few people in the team will have to be laid off. LOLx We will see less flames in the pit but strategies are still important as tyres do wear off. Less the refueling, racers will certainly need to rely less on team strategists and focus more on racing their race. Racing should be done through overtaking on tracks, not through pit stops. =.= There might be also changes in the point system, but I cannot confirm on that.

Then there will be new teams competing amid the withdrawal of two experienced teams. Of the four new teams that registered themselves, only three might make the grid. And the one I really look forward is Lotus, who are returning to F1 under the support from the Malaysian government and businessperson, notably Datuk Tony Fernades. Owned by Proton now, Lotus sports cars are one of my favourites. Looking forward to see them finish middle of the pack (Honesty, I don’t see them chasing for top honours this year). Another team was built by my idol, Richard Branson, the owner of Virgin Group. Both Tony and Richard even had a bet on who will be better and the loser, LOL, will have to wear their counterpart’s airline’s air stewardess dress. This is something nice to see at the end of the season.

The biggest anticipation of all will be the returning of the legendary Michael Schumacher. My top sports idol, made his name through titles while at Benetton and Ferrari before retiring. Perhaps life gets bored if you are used to being fast. Still remembering the first season I watch F1 on papers, he was good, but broke his leg in a crash that year. He ended the season 5th in the overall ranking. With a broken leg marred his season, his position is extremely good. He was a Ferrari driver ever since I started viewing F1 races and so, Ferrari was my top choice to support.

But this year will be a different scenario, he had signed with Mercedes, with the consent of Ferrari (Ferrari respected him so much they just let him go although he is their biggest ambassador). And for this I respect Ferrari for letting Michael continuing his dreams. Ferrari got two good drivers but I will root for Mercedes GP this season and seasons thereafter if this macho looking driver’s still around. Looking forward to see him take risk in the circuit again, as no one is really near him in terms of risk taking. Ironically, I don’t like Mercedes’ design of sports car.

With the return of the Michael, the field will be packed with so many world champions in the same season for the 1st time in years. We will get to see Alonso (the guy who beat Michael to the crown two years straight before the legend retires) in a red hot Ferrari, Hamilton and reigning champ Button in a all British McLarens and also the legend himself. It is sad that Raikonen prefer to opt out of this season (Ladies would be disappointed, but there’s still Jenson Button to look to). Other than these ex-champs, there also so many drivers in contention for the title. Massa, Vettel, Kubica and the list goes on.

Ask me who I wish will be champion in the end of the season? I will go for Massa in Ferrari for drivers championship and Red Bull for constructors’ championship. I really admire Massa being Schumacher’s sidekick before the One retire. The most cooperative driver I’d seen (Maybe it’s because it’s Schumacher), respond well to team orders and a risk taker in his driving as well (Remembers his tussle with Kubica few years ago for position). Why not Schumacher? Doesn’t he had enough holy grails in his house’s cabinet already? It will be good for him to win again but I will like Massa to take the trophy for the effort he put in. Losing in the final corner of the season two years was unfair for him. God was wrong and should fix it.

Back to the Tony v Richard case, who would I support? I would love to see Tony Fernandes wear a dress more than Richard. LOLx I feel that the Virgin owner is the type who would wear a dress even he was not asked to do so. But as a Malaysian, which I am proud of (Don’t bomb me if you don’t like Malaysia), I will support Lotus, support Proton, and in the end against Richard. T.T Hopefully, Proton’s advisor Tun Dr Mahathir will present me the new Lotus sports car as a gift for being a true Malaysian if he sees this (dreaming ^^), opposing my favourite businessperson.

The race starts in Bahrain, looking forward to it. Cavallino Rampante was the symbol I looked upon, now it’s a Malaysia flag.

I came across an article in StarTwo's Lifestyle the other day that I couldn't agree more. Because I was one of those who behaved so. The article was titled "Positive thinking is negative".

From the moment I know numbers, or I can say understand stuff, people around me had taught me to be optimistic. And I think I accept that concept of thinking pretty well, until some time later in my life (talk about it later in the post).

This concept is quite useful in motivating people to thrive for success. Being optimistic can really build up one's self belief. Yes, I do believe I will be the richest guy on planet Earth, which as I grow older it seems unachievable.

When one is being too optimistic, they might try to be perfect in every single task they are into as their mindset had hypnotized them to believe that it is possible to gain every outcome they expect. When plans does not goes perfectly, they don't come up with new contingency plans, but instead being in constant state of denial, believing the good will come eventually. Yeah, dream on baby. =.=

Many motivational speakers are also constantly using optimistic mentality to make people believe in the underlying ability. I don't mean they are doing something bad, it's just don't go overboard. One very old phrase that was told to me, by many people is "If you think you can, you can!" Now, I believe I can fly, I believe I can touch the sky. Seems familiar? Don't tell me you never heard of this. =.= Yes, men did fly but they never touch the sky (sky is something abstract). Some stuff are just impossible to be achieved.

The optimistic and pessimistic spectrum is shaped like a horseshoe, from my personal perspective. If you don't know what the shape of horseshoe, go google it. We can instill optimistic mentality in us, but to a certain amount. Be ideal, be down to earth. Believe that you can achieve the achievable. Being too optimistic will being us to the same effect of us being pessimistic, which is being lost in the journey of life.

As promised, my story which is some whining and I don't expect you to like it. I always believe in getting what I wanted. I have high confidence level and was really quite unbeatable, until primary 3. Then as I grow older, I started to learn that I am not as gifted as I thought. I am normal. Then, after some (many) disappointment in you-know-what-I-am-bad-at section of my life, I started to wake and think that I shouldn't be too optimistic. Don't dream of those fancy work I can do, I won't be able to pay myself to experience zero gravity. Get a job like tutoring in college will do for me now, and a good girl to share everything. Is there any vacancy in TAR College?

Bringing back to my topic, I am not discouraging people to be optimistic. I want everyone to greet their morning with a smile, wishing everyone the best in their day. But there is a limit. Be ideal, not perfect.

Although I had agree with the author on the topic in many areas, I disagree on the section about the pink ribbon campaign. Being optimistic does not help cure your cancer but why being pessimistic when you can live life? I agree with the author that the campaign should stop ask people to embrace their sickness, that's a really weird stuff to do. But do embrace life, make others happy (or not so sad).

And for the conclusion, I don't know what I just shit out here, but I think it's something worth reading if you have nothing else to do. Finally, stop fantasizing to be in the perfect world waiting for the perfect outcome, to me and to all of you. Optimism overdose kills. Seriously, I need to start to get a job. Is TAR College a good choice?

Yesterday, I went for Continuous Tourism Related Education courses that is required for me to renew my tourist guide license. It is the first time I took the course outside Melaka, and it's kind of anxious, entering an unknown territory.

Before I go into details of the course, I will like to say that sometimes fate just don't run into me. I knew her class was some time around 9AM, thus I went out to the LRT station just about the right time and even went to the McD near her campus. I waited and she did not appeared. I really had to go as my registration time is at 9.30AM.

Then, I just continue my journey after my breakfast at McD. Came to Global Institute of Tourism for the second time in a week. This time, there are humans greeting me in the front office, contrary to last week where I had to look for people to attend to my enquiries. The attendance was exceeded my expectation, 50+ for Chinese class about "Sun Zhu's The Art of War" and 40+ for English class about "1Malaysia". The first class was quite interesting and there is an animated video for us to watch. The class was presented by Alvin Sim, a tourist guide himself.

Then, after the 1st class ended, I requested for the Wifi password for GIT's Internet connection. When I logged in Facebook, I need to whine about my luck and the fate to meet her. She went to the exact same McD after I left. She reach 1 hour later, apparently she was late for class. =.= Well, there is really no fate between us as her class ends earlier than mine ("1Malaysia" class had not started yet) and I cannot go back with her. T.T

Heartbreak. Went out early hoping to meet her and she was there late. T.T Never mind, let's continue. The "1Malaysia" talk started and presented was by Mr. Isvaran. From my point of view, he may not have much credible argument when challenged by fellow tourist guides but his passion towards multiracial unity is plausible. His talk was not quite accepted by some people but I really admire him embracing the culture of other races. He did show himself wearing Malay and Indian traditional attire. He even mentioned he wore Cheongsam before, led to laughter around the class. He was referring to the traditional male attire of "Samfu", which to my amusement non of the tourist guide knows, or the did not bother to share what they know like I do.

Mr. Isvaran also asked us to gave our opinion on how to encourage people to support the 1Malaysia concept. I personally feel that these concept are initiated by those people in power and the opposition will politicized it not caring whether it was good or bad to the people. Government must make sure that these noble programs should not be use as a mean to gain popularity. Maybe by distancing themselves from the whole concept can make it more acceptable for people from both fraction of the nation. That's my opinion, please leave yours in the comment section.

Then, that was my day. On other happenings, my house was broke in yesterday morning. None of my stuff were lost but felt bad for my housemate who lost his new hand phone to the burglar. I hope that there will be eternal bad luck for the burglar and hopefully there will not be any misfortune for us in these last two months staying here.

Before you read this post, I will have to warn you people that I am uttering out my feelings. I only accept comments here and no others, including MSN, FB, SMS, bla bla bla, and the list goes on. This post is inspired after reading one of my friend's post. (When would I be allowed to add your blog to my blog roll?)

It has been half a year since we chatted, online and offline, which was quite unexpectedly happened. I never thought that I would not be talking to someone for that long while meeting almost every other day or so. I don't know whether there are any misunderstandings between us, but I think I am feeling bad now.

Before the problem part of our friendship, let me just write out what I had experienced here. Walking into a class almost 2 years ago and only one person grabbed my attention, not saying love at first sight but just attractive. My friends still think I was blind. Well, opinions. Haha~~

After some time, I try to get to know this girl, and it was good. I then programmed myself to be her one and failed. Then, I try to be friends. And trust me, it sucks as I don't know how to begin with. Then, some time went by. By coincidence I quarreled with assignment group members over some stuff which facilitates our "cold war", as claimed by those close to me. From then onwards, we stop talking, I started hating, and bla bla bla.

I think it's my fault here. T.T But then, explain why the blocking in MSN? Anyhow, one friend told me that maybe we have the same negative qualities that will cause some explosion. Maybe she's right, because it happened. Been hating for quite some time until recently. After my last paper, I suddenly felt that my two years had been constructed around her and to lose her as a friend is actually a failure in life.

I always wanted to try work out things with her, but I don't know how to start. Regretting may be the best thing I can do now. No experience handling such matter before. T.T The second longest so called "cold war" was 3-4 days. Six full months is a whole new level.

It might be hard few months ago, but now I had finally left the fantasy-land, maybe I can try reconciled. And, maybe read her the letter I planned whole year for her birthday but just threw away when the day arrived. Maybe not. LOLx

I once felt hatred towards her (unconsciously), now I might hate myself if I lose this friend. Missed those chats we have, amid an awkward environment every of those times. Hopefully the UK Top-up program will be a good platform. Hopefully. ^^

It has been a long time since the last post, even a longer time since my last serious one. Thinking of writing some serious stuff here might make my boring blog even more boring. But I can't stand what I am seeing.

For the past week, I was in Penang celebrating CNY with my maternal cousins. We had much fun, at home, singing karaoke and playing cards. Most of our activity are indoors except when my aunties suggested we go visit Kek Lok Si. I don't like going outdoors but sightseeing is better than shopping.

We started our journey after dinner and when we reach, it was wow, so many people. The famous temple in Penang surely attracts many visitors especially in the festive seasons when believers went to pray for a better year and tourists like me go just for the viewing.

The traffic jam uphill really make me want to just walk up, getting excited to see the new pavilion. But when we reach up there, it was a little disappointment. Maybe it's not little, I have many comments on everything up on the temple. It was like a funfair in the temple, much like a degraded Genting Highland. Kek Lok Si had surely lost its aura as a temple, to me perhaps.

And funfair decorations are ugly. Firstly, there are lights, different colours, and lots of them, surrounding the temple structure. Even the flowers are not natural with the lights surrounding it. Talk about those flowers, what had been put around the temple is too much, and too fake. It just seems the flower are not nurtured there but transferred there for the CNY just to make the place more "attractive". But the people there might really nurturing those plants as there are shit smells around the temple. Don't get me wrong, I meant the fertilizer. And, yeah, it's sucks to be there.

The next thing I want to talk about would be the donations. The parking fees is acceptable as we need a safe place to park our vehicles. Then there was donation counters all over the temple complex, ranging from joss stick selling to writing names on tiles that used to extend the temple. Fair enough as we are "donating" to charity. Then there was this souvenir store selling absurd items that has no relation to the temple, the religion or even the state of Penang. But my uncle who was quite an opposition fanatic argued that government don't help them Buddhist. =.= Acceptable. But the worst is yet to come. There's this main temple where we need to pay to visit, and the guy at the entrance is damn rude. When we asked about how much to get in, he replied to us that just go away if you don't want to enter. Looking at the bright side, he smiled when we 6 persons paid for the entrance fees. =.=

But where does these donations go to? Charity? Those who in need of help? I don't think so after seeing the new structures in the temple complex. Temples and the monks and nuns should live a humble life, right? But those buildings are over, too majestic. And most of these donations will be used for their new project which is the Kuan Yin Goddess of Mercy pavilion (have mercy on me for condemning the temple's action). The construction cost is RM40million, which I can confidently say more than the worth of most Penangites. I don't even think I can earn that much cumulatively my whole life. Wouldn't it be better for the temple to donate those money to those in need? I think RM40million can help at least 40 poor kids to survive, assuming those kids are really lucky to have RM1million each as donation. =.=

Some might argue it is inevitable as the temple need to expand to attract tourists. But think again, should the temple be visited by those faithful believers? Commercializing the religion and taking advantage of the name of the religion is not part of the teachings of the religion. They should be humble, and set their mind free from material wealth, which I don't see them portray through their ever increasing structures. Maybe if this was done by a corporate company, I would say it's a good move. But for a temple, please channel your donations collected to those in need. And take off those disgusting flowers and lights.

For me personally, I don't think it's a good move by everyone involved to support what is going on there at Kek Lok Si and maybe some other religious sites. A place for prayer made into a funfair, a lost of it main purpose of existence. I can't feel the presence of divine being here anymore. T.T I visited Kek Lok Si once before, it was better then.

After so many years looking for the one for me, and after so many years without a date on Valentine's Day, finally this year I had a date, with people that I can be together with, for life. These people never give up on me, always been at my side.

Happy Chinese New Year! Welcoming the year of tiger. ^^ This year's Valentine's Day is on the same day as CNY and I finally got to celebrate V Day with someone I loved, my family. Reunion dinner was the usual stuff, bla bla bla... Then was the ang pows. The red packets this year is surely better than of last year, better economy perhaps. LOL

The first day gone-by as usual. My family went to the church in the morning. Kinda boring, but it's our responsibility to the Almighty. This year is the first year I did not take ang pows from the church as I was lazy to queue up. =.= Didn't even take the oranges made available. Our family went straight home, had our breakfast, which was our reunion dinner's leftover. Then, it's the waiting game. Wait for people come to house and visit. For the 1st day just two family visited us (Getting lesser by the year).

Then it's our turn to visit people. First stop, YB's house, which we had never missed a year. The red packet given was also a large one, in terms of amount, and this year is was an even larger one. RM 50. ^^ Next stop, our granduncle's house. As usual, the house is full of people and a collection of 6 red packet there. Hohoho...

After dinner, we started our journey to Penang. For the 1st time we drive to Penang without the presence of dad. ^^ or I should T.T? At 1AM, just when we enter the highway, out car broke down. Okay, I should T.T. Our car is transferred to a workshop and need to wait till 9PM before the mechanic arrive. After repair is done, we continue our journey. I was given the driver's seat at Sungkai's Rest Area. Driving on the highway at 110kph is boring. Dare not drive fast as scared of speed trap. T.T

Now in Penang, boring like hell, thus visiting cyber cafe. Yesterday went to uncle's house on the island, then visited the night market at Batu Feringgi, which was boring. Planned to visit a relative today, now to be exact, but, the aunties wanted to go shopping. =.= That's why I am here now. Shopping is boring.

About feelings, I still missed my last day at fantasy-land, the last memory that will be my best. ^^ I had just celebrated the best Valentine's Day in my life, but the worst CNY. T.T Should I be glad or disappointed? Well, the Thursday before CNY/Valentine's Day is the best in my opinion. No objection. ^^

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Reached home four hours ago. Walk in see dad sleep in front of the monitor again. =.= The journey was okay, not too fast or too slow. Started journey after a lovely dinner with someone. T.T (I know the emo seems wrong here, but there's no typo.)

As usual, Ampang traffic a bit congested. Then the flow quite smooth from then on. I tried to maintain my speed at around 90-100kph but it makes me one of the slowest vehicle on the road. =.= Sometimes a little throttle speeds me up to 140kph. What happen to my snail-pace car? That speed brought some bad to me as I reached the toll plaza 17 minutes before the 20% discount period. WTF =.=

Then I drive through Melaka road as if I were in KL. No cars. Melaka road really no challenge, which is a good thing for me perhaps? Reached home at 12:09AM and this brings us back to daddy sleeping in front of the monitor. He woke up eventually and had some chat. ^^

After that, I went to the kitchen, to torture my little kitties having their good night sleep. ^^ So cute, missed them so much. But, unfortunately my brother tell me one gone missing. T.T If a cat went missing, most probably it's dead, either they run away to not let their owner see them die due to sickness, or as in my cat case, maybe being whacked. Pray for him to be with Almighty.

As for now, set up my computer for temporary usage. =.= Used home computer makes me want to slam the monitor. Luckily I brought back this cute computer from KL. Well, I don't know what time I be sleeping. But nothing write already for now. Maybe reality's boring and fantasy's soap opera, have more stuffs to write there.

Today is officially my last day as a TARCian in KL. My last day before I cross over the borders of reality and reason. I really feel very happy now, except that I will be driving tonight, which will be tiring. T.T

Last day here would be the same, online facing the monitor waiting for people to chat. And later, I will start to packed my stuff. LOL My stuff is extremely little, I think 30 minutes can clear all already.

One of the hardest feeling leaving here is leaving behind memories and possible chances, which don't have the passport to cross to reality world. Will miss them very much. Hopefully they can immigrate illegally. ^^

And I hope tonight will be a nice outing. I really wished for more, but this is the most I can get out of a magnificent person. Hopefully, things will go well in the future. If I'd agree to one-to-one outing, I am yet to give up. Before the verdict is laid down, we will still be friends, as requested. I hope to see more of you after tonight.

Waking up tomorrow morning in my little wooden house which I really missed. Seeing every member of my family together again after almost 9 months. ^^ I don't know if I had time to write more before CNY as I will chat, chat and chat with them all day long. So, an early Gongxi Valentine greetings here from me to you. Cheers ^^

Is it worth it waiting for two weeks doing nothing, just to have a dinner with a person? It is a dinner that is, but the feel would be different. Totally different. As promised, the gate linking my two world would be shut down in 24 hours, hopefully it does. =.=" So, this might be my last post in which my foot does not touch the ground.

I really don't quite understand people's language on this topic. Is it a indefinite no or no for now? I just asked two persons' opinion and they gave me two answers from different end of the extremes.

The first person I had consulted is one of the few people that can give me direct critical answer, O.o (You know yourself). O.o did thought of it quite long, busy on porno perhaps. But he came out with an answer I prefer more, every relationship starts from a simple friendship. What can I do now? Be friends lo. Let time flows, and pray hard hoping for miracle. The waiting part is the one I dislike, but in reality, it is what I am going to face from now on. T.T

The second advice came from one of my closest girl friend. Well, her answer was a direct no. She says she is sorry for being frank with me. She even asked me find other girls. =.= Where find lo? Even if I believe in fate, I don't think I have fate with anyone. T.T You girls don't intro your friends, where I find girl friends? Sigh, it seems reality and fantasy are not indifferent after all.

Tomorrow was all I hope for, sacrificing two weeks of time. But the outcome is not as I wanted, but is what I expected. Tomorrow, the gate will close, I had made my choice to return to Earth. But before I leave, I wished to have a great last day in my fictional world.

This reminds me of a quote from City of Angels in which Seth says, "I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss of her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it!" One date with her as friends rather than regretting not making a move. ^^ Conflicting thoughts running through my mind now though.

It has been two weeks since exam ended, and I should be in Melaka by now. But here I am, still in KL, waiting. One of the longest waits in my life. Hopefully my prayers will be answered.

While waiting, what should I do? Constructing my blog is the main priority after the wait. Then there was the new year shopping, which I don't like at all.

As for all readers that visited my blog, you can see that the changes are drastic in my little space. Added various widget and functions, some for you guys and some for my convenience updating and controlling the blog. Many posts and musics had been posted too, sharing my thoughts and feelings. Would not be doing all this if I had gone back to Melaka. Maybe the wait is not a waste after all even if there is not date. T.T

Then, it was yesterday, where I go shopping for the first time in two years. Last year, I was spared doing CNY shopping due to exams in college. But, it was not the case for the current year. T.T Met up with friends and we go to Times Square. And WTF I drove there. It was a tiring experience driving in KL, strolling the mall for 6hours and drove back home. Missed a junction while driving back and we go round KL. =.=" But found the way home, and it may be a blessing in disguise and I may had just avoided the traffic jam during peak hour. ^^

Reaching home was a relieve. Having back pain the the 6 hour walk around Times Square and Sungei Wang. How can girls don't like going for a jog at botanical gardens but can go shopping almost everyday? It was more tiring that doing gym and participate in sports for the same amount of time. Now my legs are still aching after a good night sleep. Hopefully I will never ever go shopping again.

Okay, those stuff I had done was boring. All being done just to wait for a meeting with her. Hopefully I will get a positive reply soon, or I will go back Melaka losing a big gamble. But there were no regrets. ^^

There are imperfections in the reality world, and fantasy completes the gap between reality and perfection. Am I the only person living in the fantasy world we created? I really lived in this world, the world I liked. It was my choice, a choice that I feel the right one.

An element is added to this world four years ago, which I hope that I would gradually remove by filling the gap through a real one. Reality may never be perfect, but as in my case, fantasy's worse. After four years of journey, I had not a bit fill those gaps, but it seems that the gap had widen.

A fantasy world that I will find true love? Bullshit! That's the only thing I can say for myself now. In a couple of days, my journey here will be officially come to an end. Along the road, I just experienced the pain caused by my naive thinking that there will be a perfect one. If you ask me now what I consider as perfect, I am unable to answer you. The right one will not be the perfect one, and I agree to this statement now.

Maybe the ending of my journey here will finally shut down my fantasy world. Returning to the reality, where I think I will perform better. I always thought that giving my all will result in a favorable ending. But in every case, the exact opposite happen. My fantasy turned into the worst nightmare I had experienced.

In reality, many people put high hopes on me. I am not sure that they really appreciate me or using me, but at least I am somebody important. You must be at least something to be used by others, right? My dad wanted me to join politics, my friends want to start businesses with me, I want to learn more about everything. It seems the formation in my reality world is better for my future, and the route is already established.

The realities bring me more joy than fantasies. My friends who are always there to support me, amid some who lambasted with words I can't accept. My family members who are there for me. My achievement which I can be proud of. My everything that people envy.

Fantasy such as perfect love relation may not exist. Virtual relation, speed dating. I triad some. As someone say, the faster it come, the faster it will go. True love may or may not give me happiness. Maybe finding someone who can support me is better than finding someone who can love me. If there is really such girl, I will give up love.

Maybe I should stop visiting my fantasy world again. It's going to end in about five more days. Everything deserve one last chance, right? Or not so right? One last chance. If it doesn't goes well, it will be my last try. If it goes well, it will not be fantasy anymore, it's reality.

Making decision is so hard. The number of outcomes is hell lot and impossible to anticipate the results. Some decisions are wise ones, while some may be destructive.

What are the probability of making two same decision through different media which I may come to regret in maybe a few days or I may had already regretted? Freaking out, making quick and stupid decision. That's just the classic me. T.T

It had all been going well. I was supposed to be in some movie theater now. But some decisions are made and here I am now, confused on whether I should regret or not. Rushing someone go and back from a movie is not I want, thus it's rescheduled or maybe the day will never come again. T.T

That was not the only decision I am so worry. When something once happened to me, I really freaked out when similar situation occurs. Maybe it's just some other stuff but she really used exactly the same words I used to get. It's scary. A decision I made after quite a long consultation and quite a long time before I really enter those words.

Got the same reply as previously. I am not a man of speech, so maybe what I write really is not substantially sincere for others. I just unable to say it out real life. T.T

At least I am still alive, not pressured to death thinking of the possibility of stuff if I had not uttered those words. Life's decisions, one will affects all. Hopefully, it affect my path to a better route. ^^

Sometimes it's easy to read someone's thought, through their eyes, speech or maybe words. But sometimes it is impossible to do so. Why I am so good at analyzing stuff but the ability vaporize when I needed it the most? I don't understand her, which as a result can't help her.

If her problem is with the present, it would be easy for me, as I won't try to advise her. If it was about the past, it is hard as memories stick to our hearts too tightly. Reading some of my friends' blogs makes me more confuse. Why everybody is different?

Although all of them might have different feelings and different ways to repress those after feelings, they have one thing in common. They had their best time once. It's after the best is gone that what's matters. Remember and get hurt or forget and move on. Many would ought to remember, just like me. T.T

Forever is the one word I would not use. Thinking logically, it's almost impossible to achieve. Those who vow for eternal love are suckers. For me, I would love someone till the day she doesn't. Practical, not romantic and girls don't like that. I am not a person with flowery words, maybe that's the reason for what's going on with me.

Vows that one might change in the future and girls love that? Are they sick or what? Maybe they feel that those were the best stuff in their life, and continue to wish it will come back. Maybe those will come back but there are also probability that one would find a better experience. I wish girls would leave those past behind and populate the singles world. Give me chance please.

One last thing I want to be assured of here, I may have feelings for someone that may does not have the same feelings, but I would only love those who love me. Peace out. ^^

These few days I had been thinking of many stuffs that happened in the past years, comparing it with some scenarios I encountered recently. So much similarity. It brought me fear, my heartbeat increase suddenly, and feels the psychological pain.

Is it so hard to forget the past? She is one chapter of my life. Why can't I just remove that chapter from my book of life? Wounds can be healed, but it leaves a scar. A nail hammered into a wood, and it will never be perfect anymore, even if the nail had been removed.

Someone advised me that there is no use wooing a girl who had her heart taken. I will feel the pain, she will have her own difficulties too. I think this person was right. Another says that girls will just remember someone for the good memories, ignoring the bad ones. Would they come to their senses? Love is blind. I can see it in my everyday context, just I don't understand it.

Winning over a taken heart, is it possible? I had seen examples that have happy endings, but these examples are greatly outdone by the heartbroken examples. It's not impossible, but the challenge is there, and I am walking into it again.

Why am I so obstinate? A hope that is created by my brain to form an illusion of possible success? Who am I cheating? Sometimes when I started to think logically, I felt like crying, but there was no one there for me to share this feeling.

Hopefully those bad memories can be overcome by finally meeting the right one. The one who has the magical power to heal wounds leaving no scars unattended. Like a plastic surgeon. =P

Wooing a girl. Why is it so hard? Really could not understand. Every time I am in this position, I really lose my direction. Then I go emo. >.<

Wooing a girl that had her heart fortified is even harder. Girls, even if one is single, no one could break into their hearts if it had been filled. Sometimes there are hints, many of them, but I just try to ignore them, telling myself it is not true, keeping my dead hope alive.

There are times that makes me think whether what I am doing is stupid enough. Once waited for a year, ended with my broken heart shattered further. Not enough with those pain, I really don't understand why am I still wanting to get involve in this kind of feeling.

There had been many posts these few days since the end of examination. It's really boring here right now. Many ideas and musics that I would like to share in my blog. Just waiting for the right mood.

To be honest, I am not immune to homesick. I really miss my family members back in Melaka. It has been more than eight months since I really go back home, excluding the few minutes I back home to take keys. Hadn't seen my grandmother and father since Year 2 started. Even my little kitty forgotten about me, running away when I go back to take those keys. I really have the urge to just drive home right now. T.T Why am I still here? Hoping for a possible date.

There is this girl who I am trying to woo. She is somebody. That's all I can say. Asking a girl for a date is really my worst area of expertise. Some say exam is tough, I say dating is tougher. Others say work is tedious, I say dating exhaust me. But I am trying. Some ask me to look into her to see how she feels, I really had no idea. But ask me to take a guess, I would say no feel. I am on my own, in the process of trial and error, just there are not much room for errors.

Now my question is, does it worth it? Sacrificing my extra two weeks with my family for a possible date? A date that I can only wait for a reply, not even confirm. My instinct tells me that I must take this risk although the probability of return is way too low. My instinct always fail me, hopefully not this time.

Time will tell if what I am doing is right. Now, I can just only wait for her reply. >.<

Since exam ended, I had started my dramathon on this Chinese drama. A 50 episode science fiction drama about two guys traveling back to the Qin Dynasty. Now I am at episode 46, which portray the love between the main characters.

Well, the guy is from present day and the lovely lady is one from the past. Thus many stuff that the guy said, such as movies, mobiles (which the lady learnt to use), and some historical facts that had not happen, is not understood by the lady. The guy also knew that what he said is weird for a lady from the past but the lady replied by saying although she does not understand, but she is satisfied just for listening his voice. How lovely.

Now, present it in my context. Many of my friends told me that I always say something that are beyond their understanding and warned me of not talking those stuff to a girl, especially someone special. As usual, I don't care as I would like to find a girl that accept me for who I am. Very unacceptable for some, or I can say most of the people. Is it really hard to find a girl that just support me for being me? Does this kind of girl still exist in this world? Or I really need to wait for a girl that will understand me?

Sometimes I wish that I had a partner who does not have a common topic to talk about, just both of us supporting each other. How boring is it for two person to have a common topic to talk about and when met just talk about these stuff. Maybe I have not been in a relationship before, therefore does not understand you guys. But I want support and care more than a person to talk to in a relationship. Will she come? I wish. When? I am still doubting her existence.

Nevertheless, I am still on the quest to find the one that I care, who will support and accept me for who I am. Now, continue episode 47. ^^

Recently, our nation is bombarded with news of place of worship being vandalized. Why some people would think that their religion is supreme over others? I can see that many Malaysians wanted to live in peace and harmony but were given fear by these religious extremists.

Religion, how you view it? Although I was born a Catholic, but I was taught to respect other religions. With many friends embracing other religion, I have no problem mingling with different groups of friends. As I grow older, I started to question religion, and with my learning of science and the continuous disputes between some fractions, I don’t quite believe in religion anymore. But, I still have faith that our world is created by a divine one, and maybe all religions are referring to the same Almighty.

What cause some of my friends to have disrespect to other religions? Religious teachings, that’s what I believe caused it. Any religion should be teaching us to live in harmony and lead peaceful life with our counterparts. But some fanatics tried to attract people to join their religion, controlling them and prevent these people from believing other “inferior” gods by inducing hatred about other religions.

I always shake my head when I see some “missionaries” who condemn other religion before spreading theirs. I always feel offended when some Christian guys tell me Catholic teachings had been distorted. What the ****? We pray to the same God for god’s sake. We used the same bible amid some alteration. Some even believe bible contains every single bit of God’s words. Do they know who compile the bible? Do they know that many “unfavorable” writings were omitted?

Recently, my roommate also encountered a similar situation. He is a Buddhist. The first thing those “missionaries” say was condemning the different design of deities across the world. These “missionaries” then told my friend how our mighty Jesus has a standardized figure across all nations. So, now religion has to be standardized? =.= My friend was not so into religious facts and had to get away by saying he is too busy to attend to them. And he ask me why are my kind of people are that bad, condemning others? These actions are truly bad impressions for Christianity.

As the wise guy (You know it’s you) says, “It is the faith that is important.” I believe that He created us. I have faith in my religion, not the people that governs it. And I truly believe that we all pray to them same God. Love the people around us, and don’t try to prove that your God is right and others are wrong.

The above is my personal view about religion, faith and love. Please don’t be so harsh when leaving comments. Spread love. ^^

"Patience is the key to success in war", one wise man once told me. Well, a wise friend actually. You know it's you. =.=" Only you read my blog constantly. And I write this to say that you are always right, though for in real life you can dream only of me admitting it.

I, as you all had known me, am not as calm in taking action as when I am planning for action. Impromptu and on the scene decision is always my weakness, and most of the time I took some fast but disastrous actions.

Inability to think consciously when pressured had ruined many stuff. Today is another example, which is not something that I am proud of. Only if it had not scare her off that I will have any chance left. Contingency plans? Not yet. I am still being unable to process what I had just done.

Oh wise Nigel, or any wise guy out there, please comment here to guide me to the path of glory. I am still hoping to claim triumph in the war although I had just lost the crucial battle. Maybe I just don't have confidence in me while I am in an unknown territory.

Life's a theater, a soap opera for some of my really faithful readers. My feeling now is what you had longed to see.

My life is almost perfect, just a little imperfection that ruined everything. Fate is playing a joke on me, and what can I do is just blaming my luck? Blaming it now is just the simplest way to get out of it. Timing? I had took my chance. It wasn't enough, I'm not that kind of material.

But I still have the feeling of not wanting to give up, although I had been too tired of what I had seen. I really wish that everything had not happen. I wish that I wasn't here, for the second time in the same situation.

TAR College journey had come to an end. Thinking back the "innocent" me entering this college, the hostel and the mass call. I had grown from the person I was to the person I am now. Friends from the Diploma times will still be my best memory here.

This post is a dedication to all my Diploma classmates. Wishing all good luck in the years to come.

To "Henry" Hiew Zhi Hang, "Godfather" Soh Yee Hang, "Beckey" Yong Pit Chee, "Casie" Chin Pey Yeng:
Proud to be your friend. Dedication was posted in the last post. I am not so creative to write two different dedication. ^^

To "Jeffson" Chong Jit Shan:
Although our topic is somehow unrelated, our way of doing stuff and goals are also different, we are able to be friends, a very good one indeed. From what I see, both our character should clash, but it's a miracle. LOL Wishing you the best in your studies and career. ^^

To "Kenny" Leong Jun Yuan:
My first friend in TAR College. The first time I see you I was amaze, well, by your height. LOL You shouldn't be in college. Then I entered the lecture hall and it was full, you share your seat and the friendship blossom since. Being together in much of the assignments, I think I am too harsh towards you, as I expect more from you. Hoping to cooperate with you in business in the future. ^^

To "John" Ng Boon Teik:
Can be considered second friend although we seldom talk for the first few months. If it was not for Leong, we won't get this close. A person that a little not so logic with a little blend of immaturity (Don't angry), a good friend that will be there to talk when needed. Missed those days of you staying together with us. ^^

To "PC" Chew Kian Giap:
Very outgoing person, someone I quite respect. Come college to woo the girl of his dream. =.= One of the earliest person who gave me phone number. Thanks for you car usage over the Diploma years and your cracking jokes on Zhang. ^^

To "Henry" Yeow Soon Pheng:
The most outrageous jokes would come from this guy, a total joker. A good friend, a brother. Really disappointed you had not follow us up to second year. With his presence, any boring scene will change instantly. Hopefully, you don't change. Join us more. ^^

To "Andy" Lim Siow Keat:
Tall muscular guy in the basketball team. Another friend, another brother. Was with us for two years before ending the studying journey prematurely. A lot of fun with the guy that seems quite serious. Like gangster. LOL

To "Alex" Yew Zek Ung:
Say "Good morning, Cikgu Alex!" The most unbelievable joker is now a teacher. =.= Pity those children. The first of the hostel gang I talked to. This Sabah-kia can crack jokes out of thin air and crack out notes during exam. Respect. ^^

To "Cibai Yang" Lee Chee Yang:
Yeah, one word - "*****". LOL Really a good friend with very sharp words piercing people's heart, as usual, mostly Zhang's. One of the most hardworking person I had met. I will never have his will to study non-stop over few nights. Wishing him luck in getting a job. ^^

To "Bobo" Loh Chee Wai:
The guy who come to college promoting either Heads and Shoulders or Pantene. The guy with long silky hair and go almost bald the very next semester. A guy with venomous words uttered over his mouth. Long time no see. Call me more please. ^^

To "MSN Killer" Lai Kam Loong:
The person that is quite and never angry before. When will you get pissed off? Really looking forward to it. LOL MSN Killer as his name spells, hunt down girls over the Internet. Thank him for intro few leng luis over the years. Hopefully one of them would be my girl. ^^

To "Ranger" Goh Kok Teong:
A good friend, a good brother, a bad housemate. Our friendship is skewed awkwardly, yet still can be friends. One secret to be your good friend, don't be your housemate. A person that will help you unless the problem is out of his control. True friend indeed. ^^

To "SapGong" Lee Chong Siang:
The old one in our class. LOL Two years elder. Very calm person. The only person I heard fainted in exam hall. =.= Although your journey in TAR College is not so fruitful, wishing you the best in any career you pursue. ^^

To Chun Peng, Cheng Poo, Calvin, Carmen, Malvin, Wai Guan, Sin Mun, Miss Moo, Mun Wei, Yi Heng, Kok Siang:
We chatted to little, wish there was more chance to know you guys and girls. Good luck for all your respective journey. ^^

The above dedication is my personal opinion. I have not hard feelings against anyone above. All matters can be solve through give and take. Looking forward for the better future. ^^

Two years ago (Less than two years ago), we came together. Two years later (Less than two years later, our journey here at TAR College had come to an end. Mixed feelings rushed up my nerves. Felt sad that we will have lesser chance to meet again, and happy that we will seldom meet also. LOL Really, you guys (and girls) are quite boring. =.= But two years (less than two years) had created a bond, amid a weak one, and I will continue cherish our friendship for the rest of my live.

This post is a dedication to all my Advanced Diploma classmates. Wishing all good luck in the years to come.

To "Thomas" Chong Wen Han:
Our beloved class representative, a responsible one. Nicknamed "SinChan" for his looks. A person that has very high EQ and had never been in a bad mood. The smiling face that never stop smiling really creep me up sometimes. But a big thanks and hug from me for the two years of dedicated service. ^^

To "Henry" Hiew Zhi Hang:
Beloved assistant class representative that doesn't exist. Anyone still unaware that he is our assistant class representative? Who cares? Thomas is more than enough. Back to this guy, a good classmate, good roommate, good friend. Knew him since Diploma second semester, a public target, brought us much fun and joy. Although I felt bad for the joke on you, but I won't apologize. You know me! ^^

To "Godfather" Soh Yee Hang:
Our class invisible man. Who knew his existence? Even asking a question during tutorial would have invite a round of applause from the class. My "Godfather", a good friend, a good driver (as he say he is). An avid gamer, and I really admire him for being able to survive Advanced Diploma. ^^

To "Kim" Chong Wee Kim:
Most senior among the guys, gained fame through the use of the phrase - "It depends". Have good argumentation skill but sometimes his argument is either unacceptable or just cannot be understood. Overall, a good guy with a good insight. The friendship between us will last long. Well, he is the guy i spent most time with after Zhang and Yhang. ^^

To "Earnest Chin Tong Seng:
A very talkative and sociable guy. The first day he transferred from ABM to ABU he had already chatted with me. From Diploma, he knew me, I knew him. A very good guy, have sense of responsibility. Only grouped with him in one assignment and I will rate him above average for his contribution. A very good friend with a sense of my DBU'08 Group 11 brotherhood bond. Keep in touch. ^^

To Loo Fan Wee @ Loo David:
Quite invisible. Have a good brotherhood bond but felt that the way we do things are different. Especially on the perception on how coursework should be done. A fun guy that will join most of the activities we organised. Different perception but still can be good friends is a true blessing from god. Cherish it. ^^

To "Casie" Chin Pey Yeng:
Little girl, bla bla bla, a lot of nicknames, all censored. A quite girl since Diploma, and still the same in Advanced Diploma. I feel that you are trying to ignore my existence, or just lazy to talk to me. =.= Nevertheless, a good friend that doesn't wanted anything in return for favors given, or maybe you are planning something bigger. ^^

To "Beckey" Yong Pit Chee:
Diploma never talk to her even once although same class. Don't know why in Advanced Diploma can talk so much with you. Obviously we are from different world, but can't explain our friendship. We should not be friend, the God mush had made a mistake. For the closing, really sorry for commenting on your weight. =.= I don't know if we will meet again in the future. But if we do meet again, I will still comment harshly on you. LOL ^^

To "Witch" Goh Hui Yin:
A good friend, good sister (for a short period). Almost anonymously agreed upon my friends to be the most leng girl in class, we had experienced good times before I gone mad over some assignment matters. But the friendship should be recovering, and hopefully flourish in the future. An elegant lady with a crazy mind. LOL ^^

To "Janice" Loh Yin Yee:
Ping Pong Society member (Not what I say, I just write what I see). What can I say? Nothing much, just praises from me only. Would be a better friend if we had more outings. Really nothing say already. Good luck. ^^

To "Godmother" Sim Li Cheng:
Another member of the exclusive society. Become my godmother because of a simple transaction, exchanging tutorial answer for me to call her that nickname. LOL A very crazy girl. Nothing say about her. Sorry for something we had said but you don't know. Keeping it a secret is better than you knowing it. ^^

To "Crazy Girl" Lim Li Yong:
One word, crazy. Forget me when you don't need me, find me when want to ask me question. Talk sometimes not so logic, and surviving Advanced Diploma should be a miracle for her. Harsh nickname, but I will continue to use it. ^^

To "Freesia" Atiqah Aimee:
The sole non-Chinese in the class. Very modern Muslim. Good girl friend with exceptional culinary skills. Blend well with classmate although most of the time we speak Mandarin. Wish you good luck in your future journey. ^^

To "Jennifer" Yew Leh Cheng:
The girl that grabbed my attention with her attitude. Very direct and outspoken in her speech. I think the similarity in our negative attitude doesn't blend well in our friendship. After the years, I would still love her to be my friend, but I just don't know how. Maybe as she said, "Fate bring people together, and people parts when fate ends". Maybe our fate as friends had ended. ^^

To "Whiskey" Lim Ying Pin:
The main threat to my legacy, as what I presumed. The last person I knew to be so hardworking is my primary school friend. Hardworking and always prepared for tutorials. Thanks for the help in tutorial and other inquiries. But as Yhang say there will be only one king in a kingdom, we will be only be competitor in good terms, amid different styles of handling matters. ^^

To Rae, Wei Sing, Suat Li, Sze En, Yie Yin, Hui Ju, Yee Theng, Jyy Huey, Swee Ching, Ya Chien, Garen, Cindy, Chan Hao:
We talked too less, only over the line and I don't know what to comment. T.T Hopefully our friendship will proceed for the better. For some, don't just asked me about academic stuff, ask me go dinner also can. ^^

The above dedication is my personal opinion. I have not hard feelings against anyone above. All matters can be solve through give and take. Looking forward for the better future. ^^

One more paper concluded, one more to go. After that, it's the end of my KTAR journey. Pretty confident about getting my cert right now. ^^

What should I do after my last paper? I'm so poor right now. I hope can go sing k with friends, hopefully they don't bring me clubbing. Then if lucky, hopefully I can finally get to ask her out. =.=

Then comes Chinese New Year, which conflict with Valentine's Day. Which should I choose? Hard decision. Lover? Family? Argh... Erm... I just remember... I'm single. =.= So as usual family gathering, reunion, bla bla bla. Or my luck will change? Doubt it >.<

Actually have nothing to do now, so just write something for my fans to view. Need traffic to flow into my soap opera theater before charging fees. =P

Welcoming back my faithful readers! After a short but torturing break since my last blog, I think it's time for me to make a comeback! A leap forward, a new blog! Version 3!

As for the followers of my past blogs, I am truly grateful for your supports. The content you will read here might be similar to the last blog but I can assure you, this time will be better.

As for the title, I am still looking for a more suitable one than "Blog 1.0 version 3" or Blog-Love. Any suggestion please leave comment. ^^

Finally, thanks Nigel for the encouragement in renewing my blogging journey. Hopefully, this one will be a success, and I mean success in the search for love.